It’s funny how I didn’t even think about this until tonight, but I just realized that when I leave my childhood home tomorrow, it may be for the last time. It’s way too much yard and house for just my parents and I totally support that they may move, but it’s weird to think that I may never walk through this house again. Home is where the heart is, so I know that wherever my parents move to will easily become home and in all likelihood I will be creating a home of my own when I return, but it’s insane when you think about just how many transitions are involved with me leaving for the Peace Corps.
I posted this quote on facebook the other day because it has been on my mind all week:
“I carry your heart with me (I carry it in my heart) I am never without it.”
I sincerely hope that my parents and brother realize that this whole incredible amazing terrifying crazy wonderful journey is only possible because of their love and support. They are my biggest fans and words can’t express how much I love them and appreciate them. People talk a lot about how brave I am to be going into the Peace Corps. I read once that to become a parent is to live with your heart walking around outside of your body. Even though they will miss me terribly and are (reasonably) worried, my parents are 100% supportive of my choice. I think they must be incredibly brave to be so supportive of my decision and to trust that I know I am going exactly where I am meant to be. I also listened to a podcast recently about the sibling bond and I was startled that I had never thought before about the fact that our siblings are the only people who are there for almost our entire lives. Jac and I have grown up together and watched each other learn and grow in ways that are amazing. My parents and brother are incredible, loving, supportive, amazing, hilarious, and intelligent. I couldn’t wish for more amazing people to grow up around.
I also couldn’t have done this without the love and support of my fantastic friends. So many of you believed in me when I didn’t even believe in myself and you gals and guys held the hope for me throughout my entire application process.
I may be leaving tomorrow, but I am thinking of and sending love to each and every one of you. Thank you all for the parts you have played in making me the woman I am today, for laughing with me and crying with me, and for accepting me exactly as I am.
I love you all and I hope to be in touch to tell you about this AWESOME adventure soon! I will get to let my parents know when I make it to South Africa safely and I will ask them to post something on my facebook so you all know.